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Originally Posted by Blueberrybook
@ Blue_Bird Your painting is looking good so far. I'm sorry about the dissociation. I've had some too these past few days, this morning to the extent I walked over a mile while exercising and didn't even realize it because of the dissociation. Good thing it it's Memorial Day and traffic was pretty nonexistent. Maybe playing a game or watching a show will help? Sometimes reading helps me with my dissociation but other times not. Do you think the Lamictal is causing it or do you feel there's not really an identifiable trigger? Mine often seems to have no trigger other than flashbacks sometimes but usually not. I hope you feel better soon! P.S. Speaking of cat litter on the floor, I finally vacuumed in the garage today; we have 4 litter boxes (for 3 cats, for awhile we had 4 cats), so the kitties can make quite a mess! |
Thank you!
I don’t think it’s the lamictal. It tends to happen when I’m overwhelmed or anxious and thinking about the past and having like emotional flashbacks. Today im feeling overwhelmed by my apartment because i feel like its messy and that triggers it probably because i have flashbacks to back when i was growing up with my mom and being homeless a lot and bouncing around from place to place. Cause like my apartment being messy automatically triggers the fear that I’ll get kicked out or something. I’ve never failed an inspection here so idk why I still equate my apartment feeling like it’s messy to suddenly me getting kicked out. It’s hard to change the ingrained beliefs. But when my apartment doesn’t look exactly like I want it to I get extremely overwhelmed and start having flashbacks. It’s really frustrating. It’s like no matter what I do idk how to stop the flashbacks. And as soon as they start the dissociation is kicked in.
Anyway, I’m glad you were able to vacuum! I still need to. My motivation tends to be higher in the mornings so I’m gonna try to get to it tomorrow morning.
Yeah I might read or play a game and see if that helps
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