Hello, @MuddyBoots...

Thank you for your reply.

Firguve me for only responding now, exhaustion and depression struck me like a Mac truck here in hospital yesterday and I was simply incapable of being at all coherent.
( Probably won't be very coherent now, but thank God I am allowed downstairs to the lobby to get coffee, hopefully caffeine will help me to make some sort of sense.)

Sorry!!! Already babbling away...

Anyway, yes...was dxd 25(!!!) years ago, along with a myriad of other dxs...and certainly the BPD is
what for over 2 decades has so often had me be stigmatised by mental health professionals, punished for an illness that a huge percentage of people are afflicted wirh due to trauma...

You should be very proud of being in recovery from addiction!

That shows your strength and tenacity!

...I do get " trading " one disorder for another. .

For me, with my OCD I find it a relief to have something for my obsessive compulsive behaviours to latch on to my ED...

* I am NOT suggesting this to anyone trying to cope with their OCD.

This has been my experience though.

And, @MuddyBoots, I hear you.. I too know " how" to eat having been in tx so many times, but I keep returning to the icy lying embrace off my ED...

You have all my empathy.

Please believe, you are of worth.
You deserve to know what a recovered LIFE is like!

And as do all of you happening to read this, even though you all may believe me to be the worst hypocrite you have ever encountered.

Hooe I at least made a little sense @MuddyBoots and please take good care of you.