ty Rapunzel

i never end up saying what all is in my head. Prbly a good thing. I did manage to say some of it in therapy - and cried some too.
In yoga today they talked about how "suffering is us disagreeing with reality" and it brought up stuff for me like "which reality? - the one with the freeway i am trying to navigate right now? the one with these terrible pictures in my head? the one where i switch into a child and think the past is right now? Which reality should i agree with?!"

Good questions, hard stuff. T answered that with - deep breathing. That is the reality i am to focus on.