What made you push it if you didn't want to? I'm at the point I am working on ways to make the scale look the same or higher than it was my last appointment and am constantly lying to my providers. Last night I was kinda lonely, distrustful of the ACT team, and a little more than passively suicidal so contacted rapid response (the state crisis line) and kinda said "screw it, I don't want any help with this bs." They called back today as a follow up and I told them I'm not looking for support or assistance and I don't want to make any changes.
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Not recommended to be in my apartment all next week, either (doing work on the heating system). Plan on staying with my mom. Or rather, plan on sleeping, showering, and laundering at my mom's. Gonna have access to a scale there before my pdoc appointment so I'll have a good idea as to what I have to do to not make it look like I lost whatever I did over the ten days. I'll be able to use the car though.
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I seriously can't stick to my meal plans. I try to make them nutritious and tasty enough to want to eat but not so tasty I don't feel deserving of such "luxury," but something I'd be willing to follow, but half the time I only have half what I planned for a meal or skip it completely because eating it just feels like such bull. I consistently have breakfast, lunch and dinner are hit or miss. Lunch supposed to be between noon and 1pm and a lot of time I won't finish breakfast and save the rest for lunch and cut out what I planned or just skip, dinner time was initially planned to be 5pm each night, and same thing, it's usually leftover breakfast or lunch (that wasn't intended to have leftovers) or it's postponed sometimes hours or it's just plain old skipped.
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Anyone know if those fitness trackers accurate with their "burned calorie" estimate by any chance (if you put as far as you know your actual weight and height in the settings)? I have one for a watch and just have the steps and calories hidden from the face, but can look them up if I sync with my phone. I started counting calories again (I know, I know, you don't have to say it) and looked up what it says I've been burning to compare, and I really hope it's way off otherwise my deficit on an average day is over triple what they recommend to people who are trying in a healthy way to lose weight that they don't need. There's no way that's accurate, right?