I'm anxious, tomorrow will be no fun. My t wants me to advocate for myself to see the medicine box so I know I'm getting the right medication injected. She's like your Dr knows why you're on these medications because she doesn't want me worried the whole month that they injected me with the wrong thing. She said he can not hospitalize me for just acting different than normal or acting depressed without me being a threat to myself or others. She told me I mask well. I'm like I know. She agreed I don't need mace but my coping bag was a good idea and suggested more things to put in it. I may make a small booboo bear to put in my bag or an ice bottle to hold in the office. She's worried about me dissociating while in the office. She said it's okay if I'm almost mute. I guess it's better he sees it. I'm so scared I'll just **** up this meeting. She wants me to bring a list of stuff I want addressed. Hopefully it's not that bad. And I don't get my husband kicked out of my pdoc appointments for good because I behave differently.