I started taking 40mg of loxapine again and am feeling WAY better! So I just give up. I'm officially stuck being a walking pharmacy sadly.

Wanted to share my experience using one of those SAD lamps, just as a warning. I bought one at the beginning of winter, used it three times, and it made me incredibly paranoid and weird feeling. I mean, the thing was making me go into psychosis! So I stopped using it immediately and returned it. So if you're prone to psychosis, just a warning. I know I'm probably a freak for having this negative reaction to a SAD lamp! But it DID NOT make me feel good! Just a precautionary tale. For the record, I'm diagnosed schizoaffective BP type.