I am bothered this morning by my credit card debt - it crept up by $2K and now I have a lot more debt. I paid $4K down a year ago when I got my work bonus, and now it's back up.

I want to take another vacation from my bonus money next year. I will pay off another $4k of my debt from my bonus money, but I what I really need is a far higher salary. I won't get anywhere at this salary level, and it's a great salary. WTH? HOW can I still be struggling financially when I quit smoking cigs and when I make over $100K? I live alone, is why. I refuse to get a roommate, and I refuse to move homes. So, the only way to improve my finances is with a better salary. GRRRRR. For now I am stuck. I cannot seem to muster up the energy needed for an earnest job search and job application process. It's nice to cruise and rest for a while. I needed it, after what the last six years brought into my life - a huge pile of stress and crisis after crisis. I need rest and relaxation.