Was just planning on resting, reading, doing some studying, but Fk therapy sucked (I think I just hate being told I “look good”).

I’m trying to read in the community room right now after some quick intense exercise and a cold shower, but I just can’t focus on anything but wanting out of my fking skin. I’m having such violent thoughts towards myself it is unbelievable.

I don’t know I can be safe tonight honestly, but I don’t know really how to (or that I want to) make sure I can.