Hi @oakjay - welcome to MSF. I am sorry that you are in a dark place. That must be difficult to get through the days.

Self medication only dulls the mind for a while. The root problem goes on. Your therapist sounds like they are trying to help but getting friends is not easy. I found when I hit the wall that I made online friends at this site and we conversed regularly in chat and that helped somewhat. I had to stop seeing myself as a victim and face my situation and do what I could to remedy the situation.

I joined a support group. If you are interested in meeting people who understand and have tools to help you get over using self medication as a crutch some of these may be worth exploring to see if they are appropriate for you although I have not personally used them.

Just a moment...

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