@Brentus Having to work without pay would irritate just about anyone. I'm sorry about the depression.

@Scooter9 - Sorry about your lack of sleep. Probably your wife complained about her lack of sleep because it just isn't the norm for her? Sometimes you have to give way in a marriage, it sucks but it's how it is. I started complaining less too in my marriage when things were bad because it was getting to my husband and my daughter with me being so negative. And really, I have never wanted out from my marriage so I just started trying to see and comment on the positive which helped things for me. But everyone's situation is different.

I finally had a hot shower for the first time in 2 weeks! I am SO glad the water heater has been replaced. I ran a bath afterwards so I could finally shave my legs too. It just wasn't happening in a cold bath for me.

We're going to my nephew's graduation party later today. It's a 1.5 hr. drive each way (depending on Houston traffic, it can be worse). After the party, my parents said they are taking all of the direct family out to eat at a hamburger place. Well, it's a bit of a weird one, it's got a Subway in it too. I want to push myself to get a hamburger and fries. I haven't had that in probably a few years, and definitely not one as big as this place serves. So I can probably just eat half and save the rest for tomorrow. It's a bit of a bigger deal for me with the ED history and all. I don't really group foods into good and bad anymore, but I haven't had a hamburger & fries in so long. Really it's due to saving money, eating out is so expensive it is saved for birthdays and anniversaries and then we usually go to a more upsale restaurant for fish or Vietnamese food (H & I first met at that particular Vietnamese restaurant so it has sentimental value for us). I hope I do not end up choosing the Subway instead of the burger place especially after a party that will have tons of refreshments knowing my sister and the graduation party she held a few years ago for my oldest nephew. Something of a challenge but I think I am up for it.

The other challenge is just the party itself. I am not a terribly social person and I get easily overwhelmed & overstimulated in party situations. But the party is going to be held in the community center of my old church, and it connects directly to the main church chapel with the pews where services are held, so I can always go there for a bit of peace and quiet if need be. It's a good place to pray too. And it will be good to see most of my family again especially my 2 sisters who are really my 2 best friends as well as being my sisters and my grandmother who I spent so much time with growing up she is like a 2nd mom to me. She will be 92 yr. old June 2nd, and it's hard with her getting up in age, but the wonderful thing is her mind is completely clear and I have the comfort of knowing she understands my telling her I love her so much each time I see her or talk to her on the phone.

Sorry for the long post.

I hope everyone enjoys their Saturday!