I need to eliminate my emotional baggage. It weighs me down and brings me down. I try to focus on the more positive aspects of my past, but it’s hard because there was a lot of abuse, trauma, and resulting ptsd. I’ve even been diagnosed with ptsd in the past year by a trauma therapist. Unfortunately he didn’t feel he could help me, which felt devastating at the time. I’ve wanted to address the trauma in therapy but I keep hitting brick walls when trying to find a good therapist. I walked away from the last one, and several before that. Not one has been a good fit for me lately. I had a couple good ones along the way but that’s the past. Anyways, I feel the weight of it being carried within me. Maybe I will try non traditional therapy methods, like body energy work. I believe it has strength and power to heal. I may try that next. I need money.