@Autumn88 - I'm sorry things are so difficult for you. Having an ED my entire life, I couldn't even begin to imagine. I hope you do some abstract paintings with watercolor and if you're up to it, you can post pictures of them to share in the Creative Corner forum. I post there most days, and I love seeing other people's creativity. If you write any poetry you can post your poems there as well. You are an excellent writer.

I overdid it a bit with exercise this morning even though I was dead tired (woke at 3:30 AM and couldn't go back to sleep and I started my period yesterday). Sometimes I think having strong willpower to do certain things (especially in regards to ED stuff - overexercise, restricting, recovery) is both a blessing & a curse. Most normal people would not have walked so far especially not overtired and in this awful heat & humidity. Tomorrow will be a pilates day anyway as I have grocery pickup in the morning, and I like to get cleaned up beforehand. I have to do the gentlest of beginner pilates videos as I sprained my wrist in a fall on a pile of dirt when we had our pipes redone, and it was almost better until I overbalanced over the couch arm trying to get the TV remote off the floor but that's another story.

Today is a day that will be something of a challenge for me. We are going to my nephew's graduation party later today, and my sister will put out a giant spread of refreshments knowing her. I want to eat what I want, don't overeat use intuitive eating. After the party, my parents are taking all the direct family out to eat at a hamburger place that serves giant burgers. Though the place has a Subway in it too, so that's an option, but right now I am wanting a hamburger & fries, I haven't had a large hamburger like that since my ILs used to visit (before MIL died & FIL is in a care home) because we rarely eat out due to how expensive it has become. My goal is to eat what I want of the burger, take the leftovers home for tomorrow don't stuff myself but enjoy myself. This is something of an eating challenge - both a party and on top of it a hamburger place, but I think am up for it. At least I feel that way right now. It's something I really haven't had to do in a very long time if ever. Intuitive eating, I need to remember that.