Hello, @Blueberrybook...

Thank you for encouraging me to write and paint.

I am sorry you struggle with over excersise, that is something I really only engaged in once,a couple years ago.

I seriously injured my foot doing something high impact and my doctor warned me that my weakened bones can fracture easily wirh that type of exercise.

I stopped, that was such a brief behaviour I engaged in, my whole history ( Apart from my days as a young ballet student dancing hours and hours on little fuel) of my ED I have always been too exhausted to exercise, often even short walks were ( and yet again are) too tiring...

I can understand the compulsion though...please listen to your body.
You don't have to put so much pressure on yourself...

As for your family gathering and the food involved, you have such a recovery centered mindset that I hope you will enjoy that burger and the time with your loved ones.

You possess a great deal of self awareness and inner strength I admire.

I know that I too, somewhere within me have that insight into my illness, and a great amount of inner strength, relisency...

But right now, it is muted out by my eating disorder again...

Anyway...thank you for your kindness and for sharing.

Take good care of you.