@Autumn88 Sorry things are so difficult for you and everything is crashing down on you right now. ED's are h*ll combined with other mental illnesses just beyond awful. I'll probably write a longer post later but I can relate with you about wandering the grocery store. I would wander grocery stores for a couple, maybe 3 hr. at a time looking at all the food and then buy something really trivial like 2 or 3 apples, maybe a box of Cheerios if I was feeling especially adventerous. And then I'd end up hoarding staple foods under my bed (I lived with my sister in an apartment at the time). It was a crazy time.