15 days left. The fear is rising. I think I almost feel more fear than excitement. And we might have had another misunderstanding.

Treatment: they want me to do another 4 weeks at twice a week. They also want me to do TMS at the same time. But the billing is so ****ed up that my insurance now thinks I met my deductible.

I am really struggling. I still have a lot of stressors. But I feel alone and like I’m a burden to everyone for one reason or another and that I’m letting everyone down because I’m struggling. From doctors to family to T and L. L barely responded to a text where I describe why I’m struggling. T never responded to an email where I was trying to help her with billing. H fought with me for telling him I’m struggling. My family canceled lunch instead of switching the restaurant because they had nothing I could eat (no teeth). Pdoc wants to increase Lithium and I want off it. And treatment pdoc basically only said it sucks that the treatment isn’t working.