Ohh, I get it, you guys are saying don't drive when I'm emotionally/mentally unstable and likely to do dumb shyt, not based on false assumptions that I was under the influence.

Unfortunately my other option is to stay at my mom's where I will end up killing myself or getting arrested or being involuntarily hospitalized again by the end of the week if I do not regularly get out of a 5 mile radius of the house. (I'm honestly surprised I wasn't put on an IEA today. My "unofficial conditional discharge" included no self-harming, sticking to a healthy meal plan, no substance use, no purging, and taking my meds as prescribed. The only thing I have not broken on that was the meds, and I was an hour late today on that too.)

Edit to add: Since I'm not a 20 minute walk from my meds anymore, I also have to drive to get there again (and for appointments, which I see my pdoc tomorrow afternoon). I had a plan of going out for a strenuous walk/really easy hike that's maybe an hour drive from the office between meds and the appointment, but if I'm not feeling much calmer (AKA, ask myself "when I get on I-93 am I going to be one of the dozens or so they talk about on WMUR news they clocked in at going over 100mph? Or if there's too much traffic to go "a decent speed" am I going to want to take my little sedan four wheeling before the exit?" and if it's a "yes" I'm just going to park in a free day lot and walk to meds, go to the library between or if the weather's nice go hang out at one of my favorite outdoor reading places, walk back to the appointment, then back to the car, then back here.)