Yikes, I am having doubts again. This is not fun. I hate when I have doubts quite honestly. It's not fun at all. It's like my whole world turns upside down and I don't trust anyone. It's quite difficult to deal with.

This time what triggered it was having switched psychiatrists. I always get down on myself when I make a major decision. I don't know what that means. It just maybe means I am hard on myself when I make big decisions. I don't know. It's really hard.