Thank you for your kind and empathetic words for me @Forestchild.
(Love your beautiful username, have you much nature to retreat to where you live?)

Forgive me for not replying sooner, just having a terribly hard time since I left a really a very useless and damaging hospital admission, that no, did not offer me any support...apart from literally only two nurses who truly cared.

A lot of dangerous incompetence there...mistakes with my meds... and me, being the stupid mentally ill person, had to really fight to get them to finally correct, with no apologies for their errors.

Doctor who admitted me literally mocked my religious beliefs

Was pushed to have ECT, and my IP pyschiatrist hadn't even heard of The Bell Jar...which I belive ought to be required reading for a mental health professional...lost respect for her ignorance.

Backed out of ECT at the last minute.
Being too terrified of it.

Pyschiatrist really angry about it.
Discharged that same day.

Only have brief" check in calls with my OP pyschiatrist whom is also my therapist.

No word on when he can schedule a real 50 minute session with me.

Finally had to c*,t ties with emotionally abusive ex, my only " friend" Estranged from my " family" whom do not live in the same city, thank God.

Anyway forgive me for insanely rambling at you.

Still plagued by the dreams.

Live in subsidised supportive housing.
Offered a medical transfer in the winter when they finally ( supposedly, ) had the mould treated that had triggered my asthma. But as much as I hate living in fear there ( yet another criminal posted on the front door legally banned from.enertering the building) my housing management has only other deplorable dangerous bug infested properties I am terrified will be placed somewhere far worse.

Anyway, sorry to burden you.

Nobody in " real life" to talk to.

This is the sleep board,amd know haven't said much about it...

Will stop now.
Again, bless you for your kindness to.a stranger.

I.hope you ate doing ok.

Thank you for listening.