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Originally Posted by Blueberrybook
@ Blue_Bird It is wonderful you have not dissociated in a week! Do you think it's the Lamictal helping? Even though my mood is good lately I still dissociate. Mostly though I just soldier through and do my best not to panic about it. But like I said, I've dealt with this since I was 6 or 7 years old; it's more familiar to me, I thought it happened to everyone until I got older and finally understood it was not the norm. I don't know, every few days it happens to me on some level, it's frustrating, but it is what it is. |
I’m not sure if it’s the Lamictal or if I’m just doing better at dealing with stress or a combination of the two things. I didn’t start dissociating until my early 20’s. I know some of it is childhood trauma cause I have PTSD but I wonder if some of it is from experimenting with DXM when I was in my late teens which creates hallucinations and dissociation as part of the high. I took a massive amount one time, enough to probably kill me. Not on purpose, just being reckless but I blacked out on it and had a horrific experience/trip on it after that. Part of me wonders if I did something to my brain when messing around with that stuff cause before then I had never experienced dissociation.
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Diagnosis:
Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type
PTSD
Social Anxiety Disorder
Anorexia Binge/Purge type