I had a good pdoc appointment. We talked a bit about how something that is really having a negative impact on my mood is that I don't know what I want to do with my life. Yes, I teach. But, I'm not sure I want to do that for the rest of my life. I'm just not enjoying it like I used to, but this year was also a rough year so maybe next year will be different? He said he didn't know how much it would help, but maybe a test like the Myers-Briggs might be helpful in getting some sort of direction for what I could do instead of teaching.

We also talked about my high cholesterol and how that could be caused by one, or both, of the antipsychotics I'm on. My suspicion is that risperidone is causing it because it was high before I started seroquel. Also, I don't really eat in a way that should cause high cholesterol. I get it tested again next month so we'll see if the fish oil supplement I'm trying helped at all. My pdoc and I both agree that cholesterol meds would be better than adjusting my meds because of how hard it was to get me stable.

I also asked him is I have bipolar I or II because I've never been told and thought it might be good to know. He said bipolar I because of how my symptoms presented before I was diagnosed.