Hey MuddyBoots! Hope you are okay! Can I ask, might paying for somewhere else be better? Mental health and your well being is really important and that place sounds like it is unsafe or at least has some horrible memories and trauma attached to it. I would say unless you are fully healed and also strong and willing enough to suffer any reprocussions of memories or trauma that might come back to you, I'd say keep well well away from that place! you and your well being needs to come first! Anyway, whatever you choose, be safe! Forest Child x