This is going to sound like a cliche, sorry, but sometimes it’s one small step at a time, not big ones that lift us up. Can you find one thing each day, no matter how small, just for you? Maybe a favourite TV show, or rewatching a Harry Potter movie, or making yourself something nice to eat even if it’s just a snack. Reminding yourself that you matter and you will support yourself through this hard time.

You write people rely on you, I wonder if that’s a factor in how you’ve become ground down? Maybe there’s something in your life you need to change, maybe not I don’t know.

I agree with Crypts, everyone is different, meds don’t work for everyone, and not necessarily therapy either. Personally I didn’t have a great experience with nhs talking therapy last year, but many years ago I had a good therapist who truly listened to me and helped me figure things out in my mind. Therapy can vary hugely in my experience. It’s good you’re giving it a go.

If it helps to check in here then that’s a good option too. Take care.