It must be so soul destroying to feel the way you describe. I’m not sure I can offer you any advice, but I did want to respond to say I read your post.

How long have you been feeling this way? Have you sought help from your doctor or a therapist?

I’ve not experienced what you describe to the same degree, although I have had periods where I’ve felt as though I’m there for all the other people in my life but they were not there for me. Your situation sounds desperately severe.

I hope others on here respond to you with some useful advice. I would imagine your post will resonate with someone who has experienced or is currently experiencing similar feelings.

Jeff.