Maybe I’m throwing a pity party for myself, but I’m not seeking anything here.

I really think I’m a bad person. I have way too high expectations of people (especially L). And I have failed myself and everyone in my life. Like my teeth. Supposedly, the average age to lose all your teeth is 74. Without teeth, my jaw will deteriorate. I won’t have a jaw left at 74! I see all these doctors who put me on meds, drugs, and treatments and still I struggle. Nothing seems to work. I feel like I’ve wasted everyone’s efforts including here and L’s. I’m not trying to be bad. But I have failed at this life. I thinking of just quitting everything. Live out my days and try my best to be a good wife, dog mom, and daughter. But seclude myself from the rest of the world so I don’t hurt or disappoint anyone else.