Hi everyone,
im new here.Im glad i found this site,it has a lot of info.I was diagnosed last year first with depression and i tried Effexor which was terrible,then it was Cymbalta,Wellbutrin,Zoloft.None of those worked and plus i out on 30lbs.Used to be 110lbs.
So then i found anew doctor and was diagnosed with Bipolar II and was put on Lamictal,im on 400mg now and i dont feel any different.I also take Seroquel for sleep 400mg which is making me gain weight even tough i work out.Also taking Topamax to control the weight,taking 25mg Adderall in the am to wake up and dont eat almost all day.
I was beaten and verbally abused since i was 4yrs old by my father,so was my brother and my mom.Some days when my dad had a bad day at work we were beaten,i hate him so much to this day.He never said he was sorry for what he did and i cannot let go.Im from Bosnia and we left the country in 1992 when the whole war and genocide started so i saw a lot of bad stuff.Anyway eversice i was 15 i started getting bad mood swings,angry,crying spells and depressed.Lamictal isnt helping,none of the drugs are making anything better.I feel good after i workout but recenty i strained my back so i cant workout.
So im even more depressed.My dad also suffers from depression,he was on zoloft and he was happy but got stopped cuz he gained weight,he always complains.
I dont want to be like him but a lot of times im like him.I have a loving husband.We got married in 2004 and he has been there for me always.But lately he just doesnt see what im going through and im not getting the support.I shouldnt wait for him to make me happy.I need to make myself happy.
I just want to be happy and find a medicine that will help me control these moods and i will do the res.
Lately i just dont wanna get out of bad and wish i was a different person.I have my next appt with my doc july 11th and gonna ask him to stop Seroquel,i dont want to gain anymore weight and i need something for the anxiety attacks.Klonapin isnt helping.Ugh,how come nothing is working.How come i find a negative in everything?
I used to go to therapy but it was $75/hr,i cant afford it
Any advice?
what meds worked for you guys?
Any suggestions
thanks for reading
sorry for the long post