Scarlet. Wow, i mean i isolate because i cant tolerate the outside world's weirdness. Mostly the relatives. I love my Uber drivers! So its sweet to me that you say you dont want to hurt others. I understand that though - they want to bend you in certain ways as they have always done, and after that soft spot at the top of our head has hardened - hey it takes some of us longer than others, esp when otbers have been pounding on it for so long - well, we just dont bend that way anymore. I did not reciprocate my aunt's cloying "i love you" the last time we spoke (we never said it in 60 years, why start now?!) and this year has been the better for it. I did not disappear (from myself; ie dissociate) for 3 months as i did every other effing time.