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Originally Posted by Calla lily12
Crypts
I often feel the same way...that no one cares. Trust me when I say that I do care, as many others here do.Its very easy to feel like that and even harder to get out of that frame of mind. Its also hard not to feel bitter and angry about things that happened in the past. As hard as it is, I found to hold on to that anger only hurts you and you seem like too nice a person to be hurt by anger.
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Thank you for your kind words.
It's not anger over past things, it's anger over present things. The things that originally landed me with depression, PTSD, anxiety, and borderline personality - I have forgiven long ago .. but the way my mind is right now, for whatever reason, even the smallest thing causes such anger and hate in me, I have no clue how to release it. The woman you have said is "nice" .. that's the woman I miss. Up until a few days ago, no matter how cruelly someone treated me, I could find a reason to live and forgive .. now it's the exact opposite and I don't know why or what to do about it.
I do know that when others tell me how I should or should not think or feel or respond, it just makes that hatred and anger grow stronger. I don't want it eating me up or controlling me, so I am trying to get in front of it in the early stages .. but, like I said, I don't know how .. that's why I asked the question I did