Definitely I'm a perfectionist. In school if I didn't get 95% or above on an assignment, I felt absolutely like a failure, and I graduated first in my high school class. Then, I graduated summa cum laude with all As and one B from college and went on to get an M.S.

In school, I was unhappy with my image, always felt fat (though I wasn't ever really overweight, high normal BMI maybe?). But then in college. yeah, I started on the ED path.

It's not so much that I restrict water as in I just don't drink enough of it and on the flipside tend to drink too much soda and coffee which do act a bit as diuretics. It's not so much to lose weight as in I find water boring to drink (I don't know, maybe I like the bit of a jolt caffeine gives me as well) but of course, with walking in the summer even though I start before sunrise, it's very hot and humid and then I see smaller numbers on the scale with how much I sweat...ugh! Stupid ED and stupid scale! I wish I had the willpower to get rid of the scale though I think I'm a bit like @Blue_Bird wrote in that knowing what I weigh makes me feel I have more control of my weight, but it's a slippery slope. I'm doing well with water consumption today though I did finally get some flavored sparkling water to see if variety would help me a bit with that.

I have a lot of appts. this week, most of which are in the morning when I go walking, so I'll probably be doing pilates more this week. It's easier to do pilates again that my wrist finally healed from the sprain I got in early May, and that should help with hydration too. Before I sprained my wrist I was better with the exercise, alternating pilates and walking and then taking a rest day weekly. I don't think I've taken a rest day in a month; I really do need to take a day off exercise now and again.