Talked to my CM earlier. She says I look better than before the hospital, “have life in my eyes.” Asked why I don’t want to go back to dog walking and I told her some times I feel like I’m gonna pass out on my way to meds, I can’t walk to the bus station, the 15-20min walk from the stop to the shelter, walk dogs, clean cages, etc. for two hours, and then get back home once a week every week on a set schedule. Yeah, I can walk around, but other than to get meds no one is relying on me to do so at a certain time every week for 2+ hours straight (not even including the walk to/from bus stops—and paying bus fare).

She asked how I’m eating, I said shyttily, she asked what I had today and didn’t praise me so I guess that means I did really bad (I’ve had the same snack 4x in the past two days for my “meals.”) Didn’t say anything or have suggestions or anything, no further questions about the rest of the day.

Oh wait, I said I drank water and tea too, and she was really happy about that, so I guess I did get some praise.