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Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind
I just want to die. Not by my own hand .. but just .. lights out. Tired of this world. Tired of the people. Tired of the responsibilities. Tired of always falling short. Tired of being kicked around and made to jump through hoops. I'm out of energy and I'm not certain I can find my way out this time .. but, against my better judgement, I won't go down without a fight .. the crazy part is even trying to get help is a fight in itself. I feel like the world has just turned every ounce of its weight on me, trying to oppress me and keep me down and I'm still trying to stand up.
I can't do it much longer .. not without help.
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I'm so sorry you feel that way. I've been there, more than once in my life. In many respects, I'm still there. I agree with you that trying to get help can seem like a struggle in itself, most psychiatrists and counselors want to discharge me as quickly as possible once I've been restored to basic, day-to-day functioning. Trying to make it through the days can feel like wearing a suit made of lead, every step forward requiring so much effort. I don't know how to recommend any help, I just want you to know you're not alone in the way you feel.