It wasn't you specifically..

But quite a few that responded to me were either harsh in response or laughed at what I said .. to me that's not supportive at all and when I am just barely hanging on like I have been and trying hard to get help but not being able to get it .. when I allow myself to be vulnerable enough to talk on the forum, the last thing I need is to be told that my feelings are "wrong" or laughed at for my concerns or etc ..

So yeah, I'm just not going to be vulnerable anymore. I cannot risk the damage it can do