I kept getting tickets for the movies I want to see with my fandango credit the past couple days in a row then backing out and having them refunded to my account because I couldn’t get myself to leave the house to go to the movie theater. Due to agoraphobic symptoms.

I have to leave the house tomorrow for my psychiatrist appointment. Therapy I’m doing virtually. They both work in the same clinic but I don’t want to make two trips there in one day. Ones at 9:30am and one is at 3pm. So I chose to have the 3pm one as virtual (therapy). It would be a pain to have to go out twice to the same place especially since I’d be walking there and back both times.

Saturday I have to go to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. That’s non negotiable too because after Saturday I’m out of Lamictal and I can’t be missing that particular one. Sunday the pharmacy isn’t open. Sunday I can relax I guess. I might see if I can get myself to go to a movie Sunday. I really do want to see the new how to train your dragon movie. If I can push through my anxiety and get myself there that’d be great. I realize I’ve been avoiding going out since I had that really severe panic attack in public a few weeks back when coming home from the movie theater. Mainly cause I’m afraid to have a panic attack or dissociate away from home. So I’ve been stuck inside for like a week. Keep making plans to go out then backing out. I even put my volunteer job on hold for awhile and told my volunteer coordinator I’d come back in a few months from now.

I know avoidance isn’t the best way to deal with things though