I also hate myself because I feel like a failure. I can barely leave the house lately due to anxiety/fear of panic attacks and dissociation. And the fact that I have to get a payee again. Because I’m a **** up.

I kept having thoughts of ending my life a few days ago but I know I can’t do that as I have two cats to take care of.

Im really sick of everything. Things seem pointless. I failed with the jobs back when I was trying to work. I couldn’t handle the stress. I just now had to step back from my 4 year long volunteer job now because of my anxiety and dissociation were making it hard for me to get to my shifts. I just needed a break but I still feel like a failure cause it seems I can’t do anything right.