I hope everyone is doing well. @Blue_Bird - I hope things stabilize for you. I'm struggling with overspending right now and hope it is not a sign of hypomania coming on. It sounds like you have a great pdoc; you should never feel guilty calling your pdoc between appts. when you have issues/questions. I do it all the time when I need to and don't feel a bit guilty about it. That is what the pdoc is there for. I mean, I don't make a nuisance calling every day or anything though when things are falling apart, often it's H calling every day to him, and he is incredibly understanding about it. I hope your anxiety will start to improve. Remember if you dissociate in public, it really isn't the end of the world (and least not for me). I've dissociated driving even (wouldn't recommend that one but it's happened to me me than once) and things have been okay. I turn all my thoughts to the task at hand and NOT to panicking, and it (mostly) works for me. Though I've been dissociating forever, it's still not pleasant for me that's for sure! Did your pdoc reduce your trileptal any? Just asking because trileptal and Lamictal can react. I got severe scary dizziness and had to reduce my trileptal to 150 mg twice daily instead of 300 mg twice a day. So when you first take your increased Lamictal with the trileptal you may want to space them out a little and be sure you know how they react before you go anywhere outside your apartment. Did the pdoc tell you to take the Lamictal all at once or in 2 doses, curious about that?

I'm doing well today. I took a walk, showered, had breakfast, read with the SAD lamp. I picked up prescriptions and had to stop by Walmart for a few things. Did laundry and I painted a cocktail. After lunch, I'm going to the library with my daughter depending on the weather. We're supposed to have thunderstorms this afternoon, and I am not pulling the stunt I did yesterday driving in such bad weather with roads starting to flood. That was scary!

I hope everyone has a great Friday!