Feeling steadier today. I'll spend long quiet days inside in silence with my curtains closed re-organizing my home, which is a disaster. I'll get strong again. It's unfortunate that i'll miss the lovely early Summer June days we are having, but i'll get well for the height-of-Summer heat and swimming with M. I like M particularly because she doesn't trigger me. I feel affection, compassion, amusement, friendliness, warmth, and enthusiasm towards her.

She's so positive! She clearly loves her family and friends and people in general, and has nothing but endless praise for them, and gratitude to them. She's child-free like me and neither of us are interested in romance. She's a homeowner here in the building too. Her place is paid off.

I think i like her so much BECAUSE of her disability, not IN SPITE of it. I have a disability too, and M is such a good example that one can be brave and have a meaningful, worthwhile life, despite steep challenges.

I had short-sleep again, but short-sleep is better than no-sleep.

Courage and faith, that's how i'll get thru this!