First of all, when you feel the way you do now, you aren't expected to support anyone but yourself. Sometimes we must turn inward and deal with our own stuff and come back when we feel better for others. There's no shame in it and there's nothing to be sorry for. That being said, now on to the other. You're clearly displaying 2 sides of yourself here. Your rational thought process tells you first (I'm assuming that you thought this first since you mentioned it first) that the bat was nowhere near you, your hands were in your pockets, and that you aren't even sure if it was a bat. Then the illness sinks in and tries to find a way for this to be an issue. I know it's hard to follow that rational thought process when everything inside is telling you that you are in danger. You just have to try. Maybe if you repeat the rational thoughts to yourself over and over a few times, or even write them out (writing has worked wonders for me) it may help subdue the fear. May I ask if you are on meds and see a t? Hope this helps some. Take care.

ryan