I think last night was just the initial anxiety from the worrying about my the med changes. I feel fine today. Normally once I get past a couple days I feel less concerned about my meds because if nothing bad happened by then I figure I’m pretty safe.

These are the first major med changes I’ve had in years so it makes sense I’d be anxious about them.

So it’s day 3 of the increased Lamictal (been over 2 weeks since I started the med, increased to 100mg 3 days ago) , increased Thorazine and decreased Zoloft. I’m definitely sleeping now, feel less mixed mood swings. The Thorazine really is knocking me the hell out at night. Just in general I feel sedated during the day. Which is okay for now I guess. Other meds stayed the same (abilify, trileptal). When I see my psychiatrist on the 11th of July we plan on starting to slowly get me off the trileptal and Thorazine. The end goal is to just be on abilify, Zoloft, Lamictal and my PRN klonopin. That’s gonna take some time though as the trileptal has to be decreased very slowly for 2 reasons, for one decreasing the trileptal will automatically make my lamictal levels rise, and two there’s always the seizure risk when coming off an anti epileptic drug so it has to be done gradually. I’m hoping by early September to be off the trileptal and Thorazine.

I notice since I’ve been on the Lamictal I’m a LOT less irritable and angry.

I felt kind of weird last night like I couldn’t remember the correct names for things, but that seems to happen each increase in Lamictal then it goes away after a few days. I think that’s why I panicked.

Anyyyway , aside from the med stuff, I have therapy this Friday. I’m glad. I had to reschedule last Friday because I had been up 44 hours straight by the end of the day. I just couldn’t focus so I chose to reschedule. It would have been pointless I wasn’t in a state where a therapy session would have been effective.

Im debating going to see a movie tonight