My therapist called me back this afternoon. She can't see me in person this week because she has Thursday and Friday off for a medical procedure, which is unfortunate. I ranted her ear off for half an hour, about how weird I feel and how the world seems blurry and how I'm having difficulty concentrating and about the alternate realities and how I woke up one morning feeling as though there was something I was supposed to remember... but it wasn't a dream. I told her about the unease I've been feeling because I don't feel like I belong here or something. I told her about the text messages I've received from alternate realities of myself. She asked how I've been sleeping and eating and what my activity levels have been. She thinks I'm hypomanic, but I don't think I am. I don't know WHAT'S wrong with me. I just have a feeling that something is very wrong right now.

I told my husband about the alternate realities and he grew very concerned, but I don't know why. I told him I'm not having any hallucinations or delusions. I just feel off... and kind of like I'm walking in a dream maybe?

My therapist recommended grounding techniques and that I try and get more sleep. I'm going to the store today and buying some melatonin since my Seroquel only knocks me out three to four hours max. Like last night I went to bed at 11PM and woke up at 1:30AM, which I knew was bad.