I have some nervous/restless energy tonight. I was doing well most of the day, and then crashed this evening. I'm feeling very overwhelmed at the moment by little things. Some mild SI too.

Some of the restlessness may be from being home so much-I'm not sure. This is dumb of my brain, but sometimes I catch it missing my mood being off because, when it's off, I feel like I have a purpose: get better. But when stable, I'm like "now what?" I spent so long trying to get stable that it's weird to not have it be such a big part of my life.

Thinking about this, and a conversation I had with my pdoc about finding a purpose, I am thinking it would be cool to do something mental health related. I don't know that I want to go back to school though. But, I discovered today my city's Hospice program has a center near me where you can volunteer for a program that helps kids with their grief. So, I'm going to think about whether or not that might be something I'm interested in. It looks like they might want at least a year's commitment.