So the only protein shake I can handle is carnation instant breakfast high protein w fairlife milk and 2 scoops of dry peanut butter in it. It taste like peanut butter cup. I can't stomach anything other protein shake. But one 8 oz is 28 grams of protein. I sip on it all day. I try to drink 2 a day but that's a lot for me. My husband can stomach muscle milk 50 grams that he drinks throughout the day. We're on opposite ends of the eating spectrum. Is there any way you can get a dietitian that deals with eating disorders that can meet you weekly? There's also high protein yogurt if you can handle that. I myself am focusing on getting enough protein so I DON"T fall back on eliminating calories. gives my math brain something better to focus on. I need XX protein a day. My dietitian said I could replace what I was having with smoothies but that is to expensive for us. I'm trying IV flavored water today. I don't think she understands me. She didn't believe I don't eat a lot.So I'm writing everything down to show her which is bad for me. Do you have a journal that you can write down what your thinking and food journal to help? Do a clean page every day and fold over the last page so you don't look back on them and stress.

As for your team I understand not wanting help but it doesn't seem like it's your choice. Did you do a neropsych evaluation within the past 5 years or so? if not can you ask for one because like me you've had tons of diagnosis that overlap. Have you gone through the list of psych meds that you are willing to go on and bring that list? Any injections you are willing to go on because that stops the ability to OD on them? I wish you could get into an eating disorder or trauma center.