I can do the powdered vanilla instant breakfast if I put like half of a packet in a cup of chai tea or just put the chocolate kind in some boiling water, but like you said we're opposites where I just don't like liquids with calories or really anything liquid that isn't water, tea, or coffee. I'll do liquid IV on a strenuous hike (like 4 miles with a section that ascends 1000ft or more in a mile or less type of deal) or Gatorade Zero if it's hot and I'm walking over an hour at a time, or Pedialyte if I can feel my potassium is painfully low and I might collapse in the middle of the intersection getting meds especially now that I don't bother waiting for crosswalk signals, but even that I haven't had any in a couple weeks because I do regularly eat spinach, beans, salmon, and yogurt if a decent kind is on sale. I really think, maybe lacking in amount, but what food I DO eat is very dense in the nutrients I tend to struggle with (potassium and protein mostly). I think I get periods of hypoglycemia, and I think that has a lot to do with why I never sleep past 3:30am, but honestly it's only gotten to the point I've lost consciousness twice and both were because I was in the hospital and basically there were no healthy carb choices. I hate the fruity fruits, hate juice, and then on the menu there's sometimes mac n cheese, spaghetti with meat sauce (always beef. You know going to a school that ran a farm too (you could actually get credits for learning to milk, birth, and groom cows. We also had a wilderness survival course and a logging elective. But we only had like 5 of the 30 or so AP courses available), and having family with a dairy farm I'm not a huge beef person).

I don't think I've ever had a thorough neuropsych eval. When I do intakes for new places it's like half an hour of "what's wrong with you and what do you do during the day?" I got my ADHD dx while IP after thinking using Adderall recreationally would help me stay awake and then I took the longest nap I've taken in my life (I think I've taken less naps in my life outside of school than have hiked a NH48) and the doc who knew me pretty well said "actually, I've been thinking about it, and I don't think you're constantly psychotic and hypomanic. I just think you're really smart, hyperactive, disorganized, distractable, and impulsive and that combo at an extreme level to someone who can't see the dots will see that as psychosis, until we start asking questions and you're able to make it make sense. Psychotic disorganized thoughts are not connected in any understandable way, ADHD disorganized thoughts are connected, just there's a thousand jumps from here to there that it takes a lot to see the connection." So basically my ex drugging me led to that dx.

My list of "psych meds" I'd feel okay taking is pretty much just clonidine. I kinda hate Adderall because it makes my mornings so good that when it wears off and I feel like I usually do, or if I skip it like I have been lately, it feels worse than the same feeling felt before because it's relative. Like I bet a lot of people born and raised up here aren't particularly bothered by the weather, just "up, another 3' of snow coming this weekend, and coming behind it is some -20F wind chills, time to load some more wood," then they go down south like my aunt for a month to visit their kid and don't come back and start complaining it's cold when it's 55F while we send her pictures of our cars saying it's -17F out saying "thank God I put in a new battery last week."

But I won't do injections. Every long acting injection is an antipsychotic, and they're all like the shyttiest antipsychotics too. Abilify and the 1st gens cause akathisia, which I'd rather deal with hearing voices every now and then and getting a manic episode here and there than hallucinating non stop because I can't sleep because I can't lay down, and I'm allergic to Risperdal and Invega. As someone who right now is in a state of mind if I gain 2lbs I might jump from a tall height, I refuse Zyprexa (not that they even do Zyprexa injections at our clinic anyway because of the PDSS risk and no one wanting to watch someone for hours after a shot every month).

The hospital I normally go to won't even give me ANY antipsychotics at this point. They were reluctant with Zyprexa last time they tried and I told them Zyprexa was the least bad antipsychotic for akathisia, but then I just paced instead of slept after three days and started screaming at everyone and punching walls and it wasn't a good scene and they said "no more for you."