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MuddyBoots · 03:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Victoria'smom

That's how I felt. Then I was thinking about malicious compliance. H talked me out of that. Now I'm going to do a middle ground. She wanted me to exercise too. Not going to happen. I'm thinking about changing my dietitian because she doesn't get it.

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I maybe XXX but maybe she thinks I'll eat more but she asked if I was TRYING to gain weight. UMM.. politely **** YOU. I tried to tell her I was trying not to loose weight too fast but she said I didn't need to worry about that AGAIN **** YOU

I'm going to ask my therapist if they have dietitians available that deal with eating disorders.

Jfc... you know so many people with atypical anorexia die even though they're not underweight? ESPECIALLY because they're not underweight and weight is apparently their only measure of how bad an ED is.

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Honestly on the border of "severely underweight" right now, but I feel my ED was wayyy worse when I was in the middle of a "healthy range" for BMI but binging and purging like 20 times a week, constantly passing out, getting muscle spasms every morning, getting so drunk I couldn't move just to avoid the urge to binge, stealing food, etc. Like now? What? Instead of having lunch I go to the library?

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I could’ve been fine one morning and dead hours later back then, but now that things are predictable I’m threatened with hospitalization? NOW they suddenly care? “I passed out and woke up 3x last night from muscle spasms after b/p” “ok, maybe don’t do that.” “I don’t want to drink an Ensure.” “I don’t want to go through with an IEA but I will!” You get morbidly obese and can’t do anything you luke to because at that time you pretty much hiked, skied, played sports, etc. from Seroquel and it’s no biggie that you are physically incapable of walking up a hill with more than 500ft of elevation gain and give up on your goals to do things like a Z-Bonds traverse or do the T25, but have a low BMI but have no problem tackling rock scrambles when you go out as long as you don’t go on the worst days, and all of a sudden they freak out.