I just want to die. Not by my own hand .. but just .. lights out. Tired of this world. Tired of the people. Tired of the responsibilities. Tired of always falling short. Tired of being kicked around and made to jump through hoops. I'm out of energy and I'm not certain I can find my way out this time .. but, against my better judgement, I won't go down without a fight .. the crazy part is even trying to get help is a fight in itself. I feel like the world has just turned every ounce of its weight on me, trying to oppress me and keep me down and I'm still trying to stand up.

I can't do it much longer .. not without help.