Quoting Muddy:

"I don't think I've ever had a thorough neuropsych eval. When I do intakes for new places it's like half an hour of "what's wrong with you and what do you do during the day?" I got my ADHD dx while IP after thinking using Adderall recreationally would help me stay awake and then I took the longest nap I've taken in my life (I think I've taken less naps in my life outside of school than have hiked a NH48) and the doc who knew me pretty well said "actually, I've been thinking about it, and I don't think you're constantly psychotic and hypomanic. I just think you're really smart, hyperactive, disorganized, distractable, and impulsive and that combo at an extreme level to someone who can't see the dots will see that as psychosis, until we start asking questions and you're able to make it make sense. Psychotic disorganized thoughts are not connected in any understandable way, ADHD disorganized thoughts are connected, just there's a thousand jumps from here to there that it takes a lot to see the connection." So basically my ex drugging me led to that dx."

So...? Does it matter where that dx came from? Does it diminish its validity? Does it have any validity? Can you cling to this until something better gets figured out? Instead of bombing yourself back to Ground Zero every other interval of time - which is a repetition compulsion, isnt it? The more you give in to a repetition compulsion, you know... the pounds of fat i put on eating haagen dazs vanilla chocolate almond which i dont even LIKE but i kept trying to.

Just some thoughts. I really resonate with the dx for myself.