Can you cook meals in olive oil? There's a way to get more EBT if you have to pay for treatment. Is the trauma center sliding scale? I understand paying may not be possible, maybe care credit. There's got to be some real help somewhere. Have you thought about moving to a place that medical covers clinics? I know it'll take awhile but a least it's something. I understand not wanting treatment. I'm currently right there with you. But I spiral with out it. Some trans have made things worse. But getting better (even a little) maybe worth it.