I sat down one day at my word processor and made a list of questionable occurrences aka my childhood, then started writing about each one. I was surprised at how much i remembered. Maybe try that? Ive tried talking to my brother and my parents - they dont remember things that were important to me, and they see things the way they want to, in a way that favors them, so i doubt that would be helpful. Even my t wasnt very helpful - he didnt like me "dwelling" on carp. I grew up feeling like everybody knew something except me - i wasnot happy when i figured it out, but it sure explained a LOT about things people said, and about how even my own parents treated me.