Hi jenna22,

Never feel like you have to apologize for your posts here! We all come as we are and we are all here for friendship and support through these trying times.

I remember when I was properly diagnosed Bipolar and the roller coaster ride that I went on initially with my medication. I know how difficult it seems now but you will find a balance. Keep in mind sweetheart that you may need to go through several different combinations before something actually works for you. If weight gain has been an issue, Topamax will be a huge step in the right direction in curbing your appetite and balancing your mood. It has been one of my miracle meds.

You need to make sure you have a good support system. If you do not have insurance that allows for therapy sessions, call your local church any denomination (United Methodist, Catholic Social Services) and see if they offer some kind of free therapy. It sounds like it may be a good idea to include your husband in these sessions to ensure he knows how to deal with your Bipolar Disorder and to also learn how to handle his own feelings on the matter.

I wish you luck and good health Jenna. Stay strong and remember it will get better, just don't give up!