Going all over the place with how my disordered eating behaviors present is weird. There have probably been days I swallowed more calories in 2 hours than I have swallowed in the past month.
I feel like moving had something to do with the switch back towards restricting though. It's like when I didn't have my own place I didn't have any semblance of control over anything so that reflected in my eating, and now that I have enough control of my environment to have some semblance of control in my life, my eating reflects more of the "I got some control, and I love it, so I'm going to give myself the illusion of more."
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"I don't know what I'm looking for."
"Why not?"
"Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them."
"What, are you crazy?"
"It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet,"
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