Naturally I'm in a horrible mood now that I've started the day off seeing my therapist and said I'd have "a rest day," and since the library is closed have pretty much been home since. Not taking the Adderall to see if I can sleep more and eat more has severely backfired because I am again eating less a lot of the time because I just feel like I have more to do even though in actuality now I have less so come 8pm and it's getting dark I realize "oh, hey, I meant to have that lunch I made 7 and a half hours ago," and, yeah, I got 8 hours of sleep, but it took me three nights to get there.

I don't know. Maybe I just feel chaotic, defiant, and suicidal again because withdrawals or something. not like I was on a high dose for a long time...