My Support Forums - View Single Post - Bipolar check-in thread #90

LadyShadow · Jun 20, 2025, 02:57 PM

Things are going well today - I have been just waiting around hoping to book more jobs next week. I decided against Walmart to work today, but I know it's going to be bad tomorrow. @MuddyBoots - the lines are always crazy at Walmart - self-checkout and regular checkout with cashiers - there are considerably less cashiers now though, which is a shame.

Thanks so much @Blueberrybook for your advice. He does call every day, sometimes he skips a day, but it is mainly consistent. I don't think he is just stringing me along till someone else comes, he has a lot of things to take care of with his children as a single dad and now he is in school to get a better job. There are a lot of factors why we aren't together. My manic episode opened up his eyes about his own situation as well, that's why he became more proactive in taking steps to better his life. I was gone for almost three months, he had a lot of time to think, so those walls that are up didn't just go up overnight. I don't think he ever thought he would hear from me again. We have a lot to build back, these phone calls only started recently, but I am holding on. I love him very much, and I don't want to let go, and even though those walls are up and he has boundaries, I don't think he wants to let go either. Things take time, and in the meantime, I am going ahead and making friends and doing things so I don't stare at the walls of my place and close in on myself. By the way your cat drawing looks really good!

That's nice @Nammu - my birthday is the 26th its around your granddaughter's that's pretty cool. Glad you had such a good session @Blue_Bird - I miss my therapy so much.

But I have to admit, that even though it's 4pm and I haven't gotten an email or phone call, I am doing really good. Months ago, it would have been catastrophic.